I’m just feeling so fkin lost in my life right now.
My relationship with my dad n step family worsening day by day. Right now, i don’t even talk to them at all. Not a single word. I wake up, leave the house. Come home, shower, plug my headphones on n use my laptop. Don’t even interact with anyone in the house at all.
Yes, I fking hate what is happening. I don’t want to have any regrets in life. I have alr lost a childhood friend without even having the chance of saying goodbye to him. I don’t want the same to happen to my family. I want to treasure every single minute of my life I have with people.
I miss my mother, I miss my sisters, I miss my brother, and most of all, I miss living as one big family together. Haish.
Studies, I don’t know if I’m actually gonna do well. Yea yea I keep saying aim for 3.8 GPA but honestly I have no confidence in myself. I just feel like I’m a stupid and fked up person. I dont understand a lot of things in school, cos I keep falling asleep in class. Somehow I just can’t sleep early for some reason. I will always sleep late no matter what day it is.
There’s too many other things running through my mind for me to talk about. I wish I could talk to someone about it but I will never find the courage to talk to anyone in person about my problems.
Alright, whatever, goodnight.
